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2010的第一篇---》开心的假象《

2010-03-19T08:11:00.002-07:00

小时候总是过着无忧无虑的生活，但从上学的那一天开始，我们忙碌的一生就开始了～

父母和老师经常说，要考取好成绩，长大后才能找到好工作。

所以，一直以来都背着极大的压力去上学，

因为担心考不到好成绩。。。

渐渐的，都开始接受大人的价值观--》成绩是成功的标准。。

所以就算多么地不喜欢，但还是努力地学习。。。

牺牲就是为了换取未来的幸福，无苦无获

优秀的成绩，头衔，荣耀，就变成了推动力，

就算压力大得无法承受，也要安慰自己说：“以后一切都会变好。”

终于，在大学毕业后，找到了高薪的工作。

偶尔因为加薪，升职而有些满足感，但却还是充满了压力，

同样的，又在安慰自己说：“老时，日子就好过了。”

所以，最终还是忍受了下来。

但在这过程中，你真的感觉到开心吗？

是不是想成功就必须忍受痛苦？

是不是成绩优秀才会有奖励？是不是工作表现好，就会有奖金？

我们习惯性地去关注最终目标，而往往都忽略了眼前的事情。

最终导致盲目地追求。。。

社会都只奖励成功的人，而不是正在努力的人！！

但，能改变什么呢？

因为我就是生存在这个社会上。。

所以还是必须对自己说：“以后就会有好日子了。”

~心烦~

2009-08-21T04:44:00.000-07:00

哇~超久没上来分享了哟！
这还是我第一次用华语写呢！不是我英文好，只是打华语字真的超级麻烦~
其实还蛮想像上次一样关帖的，因为我真的很懒惰写帖~属于三分钟热度的那类人！

最近心情超不好的，很多事情烦哦~
也许有一半是我自己拿来烦吧~
不知道要如何和宝贝们诉说，就只好来这发泄咯~

真的不知道自己到底要的是什么~
恶魔与天使都在折腾着我~
人生的指南针也突然在这个时刻失去了它的功效~
让我漂浮在海中央~
有很多事情都在尝试改变，真的不想徘徊在原点~
但是遇到挫折后的我，又渐渐地放慢脚步，甚至不敢再往前走~
我真的不够勇敢，不够狠，所以一次又一次的失败，把我变回从前的我~

我有很多目标，有很多很多的理想~
但我没有真正的努力去实现过~
我知道谁也帮不了我，一切都必须靠自己~
成功与失败都在自己的手中~

突然脑筋闪过一些画面~
从前的我，不会像现在一样那么懦弱~
应该说，是没想后果就乱乱闯那类型~可以说是不怕死^^
其实这样也不错啊~不用像这样那么犹豫不决~
渐渐地长大，就慢慢接触到更多的事情~
但却让我失去了当初那股冲劲~
因为逐渐长大，就会有更多的责任，就必须顾虑很多事~
不能再那么地冲动，那么的义无反顾~

哇~现在想一想，以前我还真的做过超多疯狂的事耶！
超夸张的都有~丢脸的事也超多的~哈哈^^
还蛮不错的回忆叻~
segamat的朋友真的超棒的~
虽然我知道很多人都觉得我人间蒸发了~
（真的没时间啦）

好啦~不想写了!
我要重新收拾好心情，
因为我相信我能改变，我也相信我会得到我要的^^（要有正面的想法哟）
不要让这些事影响我的心情哦~
还有现在超想快点回家~呵呵！home sweet home~
还有很想见见很多的老朋友~

..holiday ending soon..

2009-06-30T00:08:00.000-07:00

holiday ending soon.

but i still cant decide whether to take 2 papers + degree or 3 papers this sem..

i'm so frustrated nw..

hw hw? which shud i choose then?

goin 2 get new housemates soon, i think..

hopefully can get those friendly 1..

miss my ex housemate so much..

we have been staying 2gether for 2 years..

bt she goin bek her hometown d..

i think we only hav little chance to meet agian..

me and her always went shopping together..

this sem nobody accompany me d.. sad:(

ah ah, so, i can save money lol..

wont spend so much this sem..

hehe^^

and spend my time in studying-->if possible(if i can self-control)

bt seriously, i really wan to study hard..

i wan to graduate faster ler..

wan to start working, start earning money^^

although i know working is nt an easy thing..

^^love lotz^^

-best sista-

2009-06-18T22:50:00.001-07:00

finally get the pic from carries oh...

6 of us... thank for the indian gal^^nice view oh..wat they doin?? so smelly...

from short to tall haha^^

took at the road side-->crazy

sharon, me and alice...

3 of us again... @sushi king oh...

15/6~16/6 happy days^^

2009-06-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

em...

we had some changes in our plan last few days..

we end up din go to genting...

although a bit sad, bt we stil enjoyed for the 2 days...

we stayed at KL...

shopping, eating...

1st day, we went to midvally...

shop a while then went to kim gary for our lunch, waiting for sharon and jenessa..

wanted to go for movie..

bt end up din go(some nt interested lol)

then shop again^^

we hav 2 cy goin for study, wanted to buy some stuff..

after tat, went to poh kong,buy a nice necklace for carries oh//

a while later, we went to sushi king had our dinner...

by the time, i think about 8++ d..

so, we decided to go bek...

bt before tat, we wanted to go "nga nga shan" 1st..

so, we took taxi to alice home..

(we took 2 taxi coz hav 6 of us)

CRAZY, REALLY CRAZY

our(sharon,weey and I) taxi driver realli crazy...

cz we duno where is alice house,

so ask the taxi driver to follow their(alice & 2cy) car...

bt tat fellow dunwan...

he keep asking us to call alice and asked for the place to stop

fuyooo...

he drove so fast, faster than roller coaster...

the meter also jump very fast and super hyper dangerous...

3 of us so scared, bt we jz keep quiet..

because we scared later he sent us to other place...

luckily, he drop us at cahaya lrt...

and the kanasai fellow charged us RM30...

#$%^&*, other taxi driver only charge alice they all for RM17,

and sent them home!!!!

HB5957, i wont forget u!!

aiz.. 破钱消灾咯！

so, we wait for alice to fetch us there...

then, we go to little genting.. see the view and took picture..

after tat alice sent us bek, and i stay at sharon home tat nite...

at midnite, me, sharon and weey go to yam cha at mamak..(damn hungry oh)

2nd day~

about 12pm, we go to sungei wang sing K @ green box by monorail...

wahahah... my 1st time to take monorail oh...

sing K until 7pm..

they go for dinner, and i went bek...

reached home ady 9.30pm

so tired...

i slept very early tat day...

me and carries ohh

sharon and me^^

took at WC..

so cute^^

they enjoying shopping...

having dinner @ sushi king..

2 best sista.. goin to genting work oh^^

*took at green box*

1 more cy helping us to take photo...

nw weey turn taking photo for us..

very hard to hav 1 which hav 6 of us...

gt 1 gal(alice大小姐) dun wan took together v us...

said she never take at WC woOrrr.

finally hav 6 of us..

bt only half of cyueh...

wahh.. me and sharon again...

(@fitting room)

duno why suddenly hav extra 2 hands here...

(kepo punya ni)

modelling ler^^ haha v mini car..

again, only hav half of cy...

holiday starting~~

2009-06-12T19:38:00.000-07:00

yahooo~~~~~

finally i can have a good rest nw...

coz i have been study hard for my exam before tat...

although my results may not seen to be good...

this was a sad thing for me...

should b better if i can finish it on time...

em...erm...

actually this holiday quite boring...

because of the H1N1, cant go anywhere...

bt i m goin to genting v my best sista(sixsome) on monday...

must b fun^^

this have been very longlong time we do not gether together...

if they see this sentence, sure they wil say is because of ME!! said tat i always ffk~~

i'm so so so sorry, i really cant make it for most of the time...

u all always let me know last minute... hehe

ok, finally i joining u all on mon, rite??

talk bout the genting, we got a trouble, we cant book the room...

the genting fellow dun let us book the room...

because monday is genting members day, fine, jz for members...

so, i try to ask my dad book, bt they need my dad go himself...

siao meh??

let them earn money also dun wan(i knew tat they hav lots of customer)

however, we are so so so LUCKY^^

my fren goin on mon, he is member also...

thus, he can help us book the room...

wahaha...

so, waiting for the coming monday^^

-sad-

2009-06-05T01:26:00.000-07:00

i jz finished 2 papers last 2days..

i feel so sad...

i can't finish it...

mean that i have nt prepare enough for it...

is all my fault...

i feel so regret...

bt, it was over...

i cant change anythings more...

stil gt 1 more paper next week...

i mz aim for it...

pray hard and study hard...

then after exam play hard....

wahaha^^

good luck to myself...

and hope the same goes to all my fren...

jia you^^

~love lotz~

right or wrong?

2009-05-25T03:11:00.001-07:00

You may be wondering, is there a right or wrong decision?

some easy choices will involve a yes/no answer with a clear differentiation between the black and white.

However, in more complex and emotional ones, choices would involve grey areas, which results in 'maybe'.

simple choices or complex choices alike, the decision making process between two options is an inherent part of life, and one of the basic survival skills needed.

We all make dozens and hundreds of choices everyday.

Many of a time, our choices are 'made' for us through a governing auto pilot mode, which means that there is little thought involved when making a choice.

If a person normally has noodles for lunch, he/she would most probably be choosing noodles for lunch instead of having rice, or burgers.

It is known as an unconscious choice, habitual choice, or an intuitive choice.

However, we do make conscious choices, such as choosing which shirt or dress to buy, or choices that would have a more profound impact on the direction of your life such as which course to major in university.

These choices would require more thought, time and energy.

start from the beginning..

2009-05-25T03:11:00.000-07:00

i had deleted my previous blog..
actually i dun feel like writing a new blog again..
bt i saw few blogs jz nw..
then only i realized a lot of my secondary school mate have their owns also..
really 后知后觉..
and because of this, i decided 2 write a new blog again..

i having exam next week..
seriously shouldn't open a new blog nw//
bt i feel so bored to date v my book ady..
i need a rest.. (actually is an excuse)

thought about secondary school life..
it was a wonderful time..
no pressure, no worried..
is totally enjoying..
i guess u feel tat too..

ntg 2 express anymore for today..
jz wan 2 make myself a bit busy,
so tat i won't feel bad for nt studying for my exam.. hehe^^

love lots...